Special Defects

Drop Kick the Faint

Sometimes, I love my dad.
Conversation.
Me: "Should I even ask them if a dual citizenship is possible?"
Dad: "No, here's what you do. Apply for Balarussian citizenship - tell them you're going to live there. Then, apply for US citizenship. Say you're going to live there. Make sure, if they ask, to say your parents aren't US citizens."
Me: "Aren't you?"
Dad: "Yes, but that's not the point. We'll be lying to two governments at once. Man, it'll be Hell if we get caught."


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Date:	2005-03-05 21:44
Subject:	I am mediocre squirrel.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cynical
Music:	Mark Van Dale w/ Enrico - "Water Rave"

I think I want to live in the city again. Suburbs... meh. Safety isn't my biggest concern right now. Heck, I want to move back to Europe. It's stupid to think that the image of it I still have is what it really is, since I was all young and dumb back then. But the conservative-ness of America is ... meh. And the religious influence. And how polished and clean and neat everything has to be. Bah. First chance I get, I'm either moving to NY or a random European country. NY's a better bet though. *shakes fist at not being able to get a joint citizenship* So screw having political freedom, I'd rather have a good time.

I think Chris and I did a bad thing. Well, we did a few times. But it was still bad. But.. not. BAAAD Chris. (I secretly enjoyed it from what I remember.)

Oooooh... techno/rave/trance/european music... I think I love you. You make me hate things. And you have really bad names.

Dear Liver,

I guess I'm sorry. I really do love you a lot and have nothing against you. I just need to have my fun, you know?

Sincerely,
Brain.

P.S. - To the stomach: sorry about the sushi.

I was randomly clicking through people's journals. And I found one that started with this.

"Well this weekend has SUCKED beyond compression."

I laughed...


Anywhoo. Last night. Was interesting. Some large issues were danced around. Some things were a bit surprising. It resolved barely any issues, but created plenty of new ones.
Oh well.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Hehehehee.

I found the Ima Robot CD at Meijer.
I think the best part of the week is just driving around with Harry and Skow. And Harry's sickening confessions of, "I just want someone to talk to. The sex is like a bonus." He's a lonely lonely boy...
I'm getting money soon. And Mr. Green wants a mural of his daughter. How akward. *cough*

Maaaan oh maaaan.
Interesting night.
Sushi.Illegal things.Peeps.Random girl's house."COMFORT MEEEEEEE".Bottles clinking in the trunk.Random person's garage light.'Below the belt' intimidation.Taco Bell.Pee waves.Bradon's (nonexistant) gay sex.Etc.

I saw Savannah at Barnes and Noble. She was with some random people I kind of recognized. Weird thing is, we saw her earlier that day at Chipotle. Stalker...

I kind of need to stop biting my fingers.

Girls are definitely more self conscious than guys (der). Guy will openly make fun of their friend's whatever, and it'll be a good laugh. With girls.. it's like walking around it on eggshells. Kind of makes me sad.

Date:	2005-02-19 12:17
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	The Beatles - "Come Together"

You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper. Severus Snape 90% Harry Potter 70% Remus Lupin 70% Ginny Weasley 70% Hermione Granger 65% Albus Dumbledore 65% Sirius Black 55% Ron Weasley 55% Lord Voldemort 45% Draco Malfoy 30% Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...? created with QuizFarm.com

It talks to you.

Anywhoo. I wish I was still in my geeky "I heart HTML" mode, like I was last summer. Because.. it's just fun. I can still look at the random code and understand what most of it's for, but still. It's saddening. Stupid Java.

I think talking to Jessie makes me happy. No matter what is said, or how it is said, for some reason, we always have a nice time just... talking. She makes a lot of sense, to me anyway. And I can understand what's going on (I hope). I also think I'm in love with her dad, but that's ok.

Quiz thingy time! FWEE!

1. I miss somebody right now.
02. I watch more tv than I used to.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping. (sometimes)
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.

07. I love to play video games.
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies.(Total accident - was trying to get anime - got a little more)
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I've been told I have a nice butt.(Hahahaa...Crazy Jimmy....)
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I'm really, really smart.

21. I've never broken someone else's bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I love rain.
24. I'm paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
26. I need money right now.
27. I love sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.
30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs.
35. I have a twin.
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look. (sometimes)
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
40. I know how to do cornrows.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
45. I have cheated on significant other.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I think that I'm popular.
49. I am currently single. (And very low maintenence)

50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants at home.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.

55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my livejournal/xanga.
58. I don't hate anyone
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.

72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've had the cops called on me before. (Long story - wasn't really me.)
74. I bite my nails sometimes.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club

76. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.

77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex but only when I fancy them.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol before.

84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal.(DEADJOURNAL BITCHES)
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I enjoy country music. (The lyrics make me squeal, especially of the "non mainstream" country)
89. I love my best friends. I love a lot of people, period.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.

99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.

101. Had a crush on somebody I've never met.
102. Kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike maths.
105. I'm procrastinating something right now.

106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.(Cheese in general..)
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost" (Obsessed only when I actually watch it... Everwood though, holy shit)

111. I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville. And I think that Tekken is the rockingest game in rockville.
112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I want people to respect me but it rarely happens.

116. I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am bisexual.
118. I think accents are attractive.

119. I could spend an entire day on the computer with the occasional potty & food breaks.
120. I think George W. Bush is not only a horrible president, but really annoying as well.
121. I have never been this happy with my life and content in this skin.
122. I have no problem downloading MP3's for free.
123. I adore scarves.
124. I'm a total lit nerd.
125. I have a severe coffee addiction
126. I like classical music.
127. I have a LiveStrong bracelet.
128. There are times when I feel completely lost or helpless.
129. I own a credit card.
131. I LOVE Disney (The old stuff when Walt was still alive...)
132. I can be really, really blunt sometimes.
133. I never sleep well unless there's someone of the opposite sex in the bed with me.
134. I like to spend time by myself and feel sufficated if i spent too much time in peoples company.
135.If I were rich, I'd like to have the biggest record collection in the world.
136. One day i'd like to own my own record label.

Dear DAAP program -

You're really not as bad and selective as people make you out to be. We might be good friends soon.

-Anna


It's kind of.. amaazing how dumb some people are. Dumb and closeminded. And a bit self centered. Yeah. I think I'm off to shower and such.

Dear Cheese Bagels -

I think out of everything in the world, I like you the most. Partially from the cheese, and partially from the fact that you remind me of conics. I like conics.

Sincerely,
Anna.

I feel cool.

AP Spanish 4. AP Art. AB Calc. AP Psychology. AP Stats. Post Secondary (probably at UC).



*shoots self*

Yesterday was probably my favorite day of the week. I went with Allison after school to the doctor's to find out she doesn't have mono. Then we went to her house, and I talked to her mom/mom's sister for a while. I might get a job during the summer translating in random courthouses. How sweet would that be? Very sweet. Then Harry picked me up and we went to Pasta Wagon, where people showed up. We sat around and chatted (I suck at arcade fighting games) and went our seperate ways. Harry and I got my camera and went to Michael's (where I aquired some stuff) and then off to Kristin's where we watched some insane movie. It was a really good movie though. And the whole time, we were taking pictures... some came out really nicely, and maybe I'll put them up here sometime later when I'm not feeling lazy/high from cleaning my bathroom. Jessie and I had a really nice deep conversation... and it only took about 5 minutes, if that. It was sweet.

Things are getting we-ird.

Date:	2005-02-03 14:15
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird
Music:	Humming of the computers...

So. I'm in the journalism lab right now, because that's where all the cool kids update their journals. The Spanish teacher told me I didn't have to take our massive test until tomorrow, so I was all, what they hey. I'm going to play with the computers.

Today was one of those pointless days... We had an optional lab in physics. Optional meaning all the nerds decide to do the lab so they can have a 100.2 instead of the usual 100.1 So, Brandon and I looked at random things on the laptops (goatse, tubgirl - testing the limits of the censorship on the images.google.com search), and swapped "middle of the night" stories with Drew. I guess when Skatetown was being built, that was the place to be at night... Oooh well. English we had "presentations." We didn't do any of that. And now I'm here. Wo-ot.

I definitely froze the computer next to this one. I guess it takes a certain amount of talent, or stupidity, to freeze a Mac. Oh wait, no it doesn't.

I'm VERY excited to see the new issue. I guess it's not coming out on Friday though. But still. VERY excited. >=D

Going on a random tangent now...
I was talking to certain people today in English, and I realized... almost all of my friends are guys. Now, this isn't a bad thing, since I don't do the whole "slut" thing with them. But still. I have.. what, two or three good female friends who I actually hang out with. Other than that, I don't really see them outside of school. But it's kind of saddening. I can't even get along with my own gender. Then talking even more to these people, I realized why. They really truly know how to annoy me. Even down to the way they talk. I don't nitpick so much on the male population, but with girls... wow, I want to shoot a few of them sometimes. And we generally don't agree on ideas either. Now, this wouldn't be so bad, only if I didn't want to shoot them for opening their mouthes. I guess it's not so bad, since I've heard quite a few females say the same thing.. but still. It's curious.

Dear Mono -
Please die.


Dear Snow -
Please keep snowing and such.


Dear Bush -
How about some pretzels?


Dear Left Side of My Face -
I'd really appreciate it if you stopped hurting like a mofo. I think I get the point. But don't make me go in there with a pencil and widen those blood vessels myself. Y'know?



Sincerely,
Anna.

Hmm. This is becoming really pointless.

Date:	2005-01-30 14:04
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	disappointed
Music:	Lords of Acid - "Young Boys"

I think it's funny when people say one thing, and act another way. I know it's generic, and cliche, but people really dissapoint me sometimes. With how stupid and blind they can be. Honestly, it's disgusting.

Whenever I'm in a bad mood, I sing along to dirty songs. And go to Wendy's.

Moving on, I think it's time for a friendship cleansing. Because you're really getting on my last fucking nerves.

Last night though.. that was nice. I wish I was more energetic, and less sick though. Saw Wallace again, and Beast, and the rest of his friends. It's a good thing I'm not that big of a slut, since I was the only girl at the place... hah. The hockey game was fun too, actually. Chris, you're the cutest cheerleader ever. And I'll have to make plans for that DDR match that never quite happened. I feel like getting schooled.

Date:	2005-01-29 14:48
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	listless
Music:	Lords of Acid - "Blowing Up Your Mind"

Last night. Man, oh man. Akward place to play music, but a great place to literally, jump and run over drunk peoples' cars. Go Skow.

It's so cute how people are different depending on where they are, and who they're with. Not even personality changes, but certain things in people's personalities just get brought out in certain situations.

Another cute thing is how everyone's divided into their little groups, and how it's literally impossible for one group to "hang out" with another. Even when they're confined to a small building and a parking lot, they say their hellos to each other, and move on. I guess it's not cute, but actually kind of annoying. Because, you have to pick a group to be with... damn mingling.

I wonder where my mother is. I haven't seen her the whole day, except for when she woke me up at 8 in the morning.

My scarf smells really odd. Bah.

I think I get a kick out of making people uncomfortable. And I don't think that's very socially healthy.

This would a good time to go and play with something.

I don't actually know how I feel about yesterday. Of course, it was fun. But.. still. There's that strange nagging feeling that I did something wrong.

Tonight's going to be nice. *dances*